Ode to Bridget

She made her way North
Left Florida behind
Although she misses the sunshine
The introspective gray skies of Ohio are fine

Her life is on track now
Working her way back down
To the root of what makes us all tick
But the road to nirvana is never quick

With a heart full of emotion
Ambition set changes in motion
Goals, aspirations of a higher degree
Pushing forward to what she knows she can be

A hope of the future, a shrug to the past
Presently shining in the role she's been cast
There's no denying the peace of mind to come
From trying her best to be number one

Eyes that twinkle like starlight
A smile that makes things alright
A mature woman emerges from a girl.
Through the clouds of Ohio,
the sun is shining in Bridget's world.

Unable to See

Do you ever wanna stop trying?
At this life-long stockmarket crash into which we are buying
At this masqurade ball to which we have no entry
At this hall of mirrors where distortion is reality
Seeking a ray of hope in the eternal night
That will open the darkeness and give me some sight.
There's gotta be a break for me, people get them all the time
I wanna stand in victory of this mountain that I climb
Perhaps someone's stacked the cards in my destiny deck
But the game continues and my fortune's a wreck
It seems the joke's always on me
Like I'm the center of some Greek tragedy
I'm a clown at the circus, and I'm the only one
That's wearing a smile, but not having any fun
But somehow I can't find a way out
To make my way to become the man that some woman dreams about
I keep searching, trying for another day to pursue my dreams
Yet it seems
I'm reaching out for help to extinguish these fires
Bursting into flames from the depths of my desires
My pain is the beacon
to the ship of love that I'm seekin'
But I guess I'm a lighthouse in the middle of a field
No use to anyone sailing towards rocks unrevealed
If I'm a beach, life's the breakers
Eroding my soul by emotional acres.
Takers--Life's full up of these
I'm the dog, they're the fleas.
I gotta get back, gotta seek again
Gotta start living life to win!
And then again, I'm taken back to the reality
That I sit alone in darkness, unable to see.

At the Brink

I'm at the brink
my mind madness from all that I think
staring into shadows and the darkness lurking there
I call out for sanity but she doesn't care
She'd leave me torn, broken from battles fought
Unlikely to recover, frightened to move from this spot
Can you give me a drink at the very least
Or does the sight of my constant thirst leave you pleased?
Refreshing companion, my own sorrow
Perhaps there'll be restitution for this sadness tomorrow.
Hope is a four letter word, forbidden here
I'm poisoned with my memories, and captured by fear
Minutes seem like hours to the tortured soul
I know there's nothing left that can make me whole
The moment is here for my exit, the door is hidden in the black
but the urgency of this departure doesn't allow for slack
So I push forward arms ahead
Praying that what I'm about to do won't leave me dead
The light is blinding and burns through my being
Claiming the sanctity of my shadow, it runs fleeing.
The pleasant surroundings numb me to fright
I'm distanced from the pain when the reaper takes his bite
I check in the mirror to be sure of my existence
Eyes wide, teethy grin, the reflection is the same
But there's no soul within.
I've given in to conforming, of letting others rule
And now I'm reduced to the lifelessness, of being played the fool
...forever.