There In My Mind

I cry out in the night, trying to find you
But the moonlight doesn't brighten my way
And the dreams so dear in the nighttime
Fade in the sunlight of day
With this routine I find adventure
Because I know a reversal is near
When everything that's a fantasy
Will suddenly erase all of my fear

And that's when I'll finally find you
Eyes twinkling by the sea of stars
We'll both be swept away by our love
Kissing away a life full of scars

But for now I have to keep looking
Because I'm no closer now than I was
To finding a path that connects us
To finding the portrait of love

So mesmerizing
The fire inside you
The warmth I'm remembering still
I long to discover and love you
So afraid that I never will.

My awareness comes between us
Since you're only there in my mind
I hope there's comfort in your presence
Cause you're the only relief I can find

Get A Life

Do you always agree
Can you say something of your own
Or are you lost inside
A child of the unknown

Do you need so much attention
Is there anything you won't mention
Or has it always been this way
Dramatize everthing, everyday

Get a life! (Kids sing1)
Don't try to live vicariously through me (rap)
I won't be party to your puppetryGrow-ow Up! (kids sing)
Did you single me out (voice1)
is that what this is all about (voice 2)
Wipe the frown off your face, come on, don't pout.
Be A Man!
Another day, another dollar, get angry. holler, holler
You act just like your father (whiney woman voice)

Well I guess you know by now
How I feel about the situation
If I have to hear you complain again
I'm gonna smash your Play Station
Ok... I can listen if you want to talk
But just so you know, I charge by the minute...So let me set my clock..
(tick tock sound from 60 minutes)

Then There's the Rain

A world away I arrived at this side of tragedy
The hopes and glimmers of boyhood
tarnished by being a man
Adventures wrought iron shackles to choices past
And here I am with this burden of memories
They won't let me rest and I wrestle in the darkness
With the skeletons in the closet
With the shadows of miserable realizations
It's 4 in the morning and my heart still aches
But the dawn doesn't erase the pain or fill this void
Void of you, void of living, void of pushing on
So I cloak myself in the day to day
Hoping for just a glimpse of you
But I'm forced to settle
for a reflection of me in the mirror, tears flowing.
I stroll through the streets ever searching
And though there are millions of people I'm still alone.
And that thought makes me ever more lonesome.
If I can't find love in a million people, I can't find love anywhere.
Pressures from every side,
no place to hide
Making me crazy -- crazy insane.
Then there's the rain.......

Glinda

Something's calling out
Waiting for my answer
I'm taking all I can take
From the madam and the sir, or
Anyone who gives
Let's me live...live
Everyday seems more like a struggle
Frightening laughter reeks
Of the masquaradery we juggle

Voices whisper
Through the music
heavy metal doesn't cover
the instructional dialogue hiding
biding its time, until the hidden agenda
awakes for sanctities sake

Glinda
She's one from a set of twins.
I don't know what ever hapenned to them
But the thought is nice that they
Turned out fine, that their life is as they say
Happy.
Bar all memories here
unless you like recollecting fear
It's scary to call back things in the past
In survivial that's a luxury that comes last

The present exhibits more than enough
To deal with it's rehtoric is tough
And so we go on
Strong people make it
People take it
Life's better for the living